Guilt

Do I stay or do I go?

This is the question

that nags me so

Out there is a world

waiting to be conquered

And I know

I'm capable of doing so

I find so much joy

in a job well done

And I do enjoy

my moments in the sun

But as I step out the door

And you tug at my hand

And look at me

with those tear-filled eyes

My step falters

And my new-found joy dies

I'm trapped by the longing

to be there for you

My heart says, stay

But my mind

urges me to go

How can I explain to you, little one

Though I have to leave you each day

You are always in my thoughts

and I'm just a phone call away

You may not understand now

because you are so young

but I hope that as you start to grow

Deep in your heart, you will know

Though you are dear to me

and always will be

There are new things for me to do

And new worlds to see

As you grow, 

watching me juggle

these two worlds

you will understand

that it can be fun

and you will learn

that it can be done

There's no need to choose

between one and the other

You can do both

and still be a wonderful mother


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